I have been dealing with internal issues regarding my weight and not seeing the results that I want. Janet my trainer reminded me, “The weight didn’t come on over night and it will not go away over night”. Which shouldn’t come as a surprise to me during this time. I am actually doing it the right way after trying all different kinds of ways over the years. Now that I am doing mommystrong after waiting a while 12 weeks from spring because of gall-bladder surgery I am glad to have the chance to do this. Life is getting better from here. I am aiming to be a mommystrong trainer at some point in this journey to help me get ready for the bigger future that God has for me. I believe that, “My success is not based on if I succeed but my success is found in that God CAN’T FAIL”. I am so thankful that during this journey God ISN’T GOING TO FAIL ME. I believe that everything I am called to will come to pass in God’s timing. Yes, I dislike God’s timing sometime but I wouldn’t have it any other way because He’s never late but always right on time.
This is a journey 13 years in the making and it started when I was 13 years old. I am claiming that this is my year at 26 years old. I am claiming the my hormones line up the way they are suppose to, etc. I know now that I can’t blame what happened in the past as something that God made happen. I will be honest, life sucked as a teenager in middle school. Teenagers are cruel and especially girls at 13 years old. To this day I remember everything that was done to me but I no longer let it dictate how I handle the rest of my life. Yes, I remember what it felt like but I don’t want it to rule my decisions everyday. I want to live in freedom from the past. The past is the past and it will be something that I share in the near future but it’s not my life anymore. I have forgiven those people who did those things and release them from my constant torture that ruins my life and not theirs. It is tough to live life in the past but trust me those people who did wrong to you have moved on and are still living their lives. All the while, you are stuck in a time warp. The time has come to shake it all off and forgive them for the past. No, it doesn’t always happen over night but it will free you with ever little step you take. I believe that God is going to give back to me what was lost during those 13 years of my life. He’s preparing it all and I can’t wait to get it, etc.
Quote: “To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you. ”
~ Lewis B. Smedes
“Holding resentment is like eating poison and waiting for the other person to keel over.”
Both of these quotes are very true. Forgiveness isn’t really for the other person but for you. It’s to set you free and allow you to start living. I know this to be true because I lived in my own personal HELL for 13 years. I held everything in, every word spoken, every thought about myself and every act of hatred towards me from others. So, no matter what it is in you past that is hold you back……… Let it go and forgive them. It’s all for you.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.[a]
2 Chronicles 15:7
But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded.”